Thank you all so much for the encouragement. This forum is fantastic, im just sorry i didnt find it years ago. However, im here now. @Soccer2000 thats great news about the field trip! @Pinetree it sounds like anxiety affects me in a very similar way that it affected you, im greatful that you take the time to share it with us because its so helpful.
I have been having quite intense anxiety since Friday (even though i was determined not to beat myself up). I do find it hard not to have that sudden jolt of anxiety everytime i think about ever being in any situation that requires me to be the certain of attention. Even watching tv i get anxiety because i think, if that was me i couldnt do that. How are they so calm! And so the cycle begins and i trap myself. I am close to letting it overwhelm me i have to say. However, on the flipside I listened to the session 5 audio for a full hour yesterday. I downloaded an app to record my own voice reading the attitude statements in slow talk to try and keep me on track. You have all encouraged me to focus on the solutions not the problem.