Hey Everyone, I decided to write here my therapy journal, like others in this forum have. I will document my daily and weekly progress here, such as the behavioral experiments I take, the cognitive changes I experience, and more. This will not necessarily be interesting for everyone to read, but I figured keeping a public log of my actions will motivate me to keep advancing. Nonetheless, I hope that maybe someone could benefit from this, and I will try inserting interesting insights and understandings.
I am in my 20's, and currently studying for my bachelor's. I've had SA most of my life, and despite repeated attempts to get rid of it with different methods, I still experience it. A year ago, I began Dr. Richards' old CBT therapy series. It was amazing. I was in awe of the possibility that I can change my thoughts to become more positive and weaken the ANTs. I kept working on it, and made progress, but couldn't really perform the behavioral therapy consistently. School demands have also caused some overload which slowed my progress. In addition, I have a problem slowing down my speech and using slow talk, something that made it harder for me to implement the therapy. However, cognitively I must say I function much better now, a year after. I am much less depressed and have a way better ability to keep my thoughts positive.
Now I have some more free time, and I am ready to get back on track. For today, I will try and perform slow talk with 5 people. I'll go out and see how it goes. Love to everyone.