I decided that this topic will be my well deserved pat on the back. This way, I can have everything in writing and can go back to it when ANTs hit me. If they do...
A week ago, my friend admitted to me he is cheating on his wife with his coworker girl. I knew it and didn't like it but somehow wanted to be supportive and non judgemental. it sounded almost like I approve that behaviour. I did advise him to stop that and I beat my self a lot about it.
This morning, we met for a coffee and I somehow got the guts to ask him about it again. he said all that is over and he loves his wife. So, his family should be ok. We had a talk about and agreed that it was stupid. This girl still works with him, so i hope he will stay away from her.
Anyway, I did what I could. It was wrong to beat my self like it was my fault.
I hope I'm getting pretty good and conversing with girls. I always had a lot of anxiety with them.
Today, i was on my way to get a haircut when I met again my ex coworker girl. I was just a bit anxious but we had like 20 min chat on the street. it could easily be longest chat i ever had on the street. i said I will call her for a coffee on a weekend. I was almost late for my haircut appointment.
Later tonight, i was having coffee with my friend and his kid on the bar terrace. One girl, my friend's wife's friend, walked by us in the street and came to say hi. I didn't see her for years. Normally, I would pretend i don't know her. That was my usual way to defend from anxiety. Tonight, i was very friendly and i said hi and even manage to say few jokes. This girl was also talking a lot. And she was very loud. So loud that a kid at our table covered his ears. It was so funny.
I was hoping to get a answer about my job in Germany but they didn't call me. They said Monday or Tuesday, so there is hope tomorrow. I really need that job.