This is an interesting session.
I am noticing quite a few of my ANTs. They're overwhelming in numbers. Nearly every moment of every day and multifaceted as well. Judgements upon judgements. Some are my own. Some are the perception of others.
At one point in my childhood, I recall my own mother talking about the horrible things she thought I was thinking rather than the truth. She would say these things and I would be horrified that she would ever think that of me.
I want to talk with my fiance about these, and I do, but I also worry that he may think the same about me. In my mind, he is the biggest jerk one could be and extremely judgemental. When in reality, he is not. I ask questions to help better understand his true thoughts on a matter, which helps me overcome the ANTs, but...
At the end of the day, these overlapping judgements and fears are challenging to quiet. I notice them a bit more now and feel like a crushing weight is upon me. That these won't lift because every one that I notice, I am feeling 'are wrong' and telling to stop, which is a negative response to a negative feeling.
Is there an alternative? Does this slowly ease up with time?