My heart goes out to you guys. I’m not in the same situation myself, but I know what it’s like to be teased by a parent about something. I get really angry when I think about what actual bullies like that have done to their children and to other innocent people, and I wish I could undo all of the harm done. But it’s not my job, and in any case, that’s all in the past. The only consolation and hope I can offer is to urge you to radically embrace the present moment (reading a book by Eckert Tolle might help, e.g., The Power of Now) and know that new people you meet don’t know about the SA. All they see is what’s in front of them, and some people can even see a beautiful soul that’s right in front of them, no matter how the casing around it looks.
Here’s an analogy that might help: When I used to teach English as a foreign language, many of my students apologized for their skills, believing that I couldn’t understand what they were saying. I always said, “But you sound good to me. I can understand what you’re saying, and don’t forget, I’m fluent. I’m filling in the gaps. I’m using intuition to make your message sound fluent in my inner ear.”
Don’t forget; other people are filling in and projecting onto you everything they want to see. They can’t see the SA (well, okay, they can see signs of nervousness, but we’re working on all that). They can’t see our thoughts, so even if we slip up there and rag on ourselves, if we catch ourselves in time, no one will know we even had the ANT in the first place.