Well, I'm totally depressed over this whole day. But you know what? I will beet this one too.
As a teenager, I was afraid to leave the house. Almost wanted to leave school because of it. I was harassed in every possible way by my school mates, parents, relatives, everyone cause of my quiet nature. I never believed i will be able to study or work. I went to the deepest depressions possible. But I made it trough.
Sometimes later then other people, but usually in a better way. Today I have better job then most people I know, the one that takes big social skills. The one who did not have any friends as a kid, now has the best friends in the world. My bloody phone rings all the time,I am invited to parties, concerts, sport events... I got my self great hobbies, great sport results and everything people with authority in my life said I wont be able to do.
Looking back now, I can't believe I am still same person. It took a lot of time. First I learned by trial and error. very painful and time consuming. You don't even know when you are doing things right way, because there are so many paradoxes. Later i read everything possible on internet. I thank God every day for internet and my ability to understand English. Without it, who knows what would happen to me.
Looking back again, I was offten very humiliated trying to get friends and fit in, or get and keep the job. And I think accepting that helped me got trough. So I will accept the fact that i am useless in getting a date, because that too will change,
So, I will start dating girls. Maybe at the age of 35 or 40, but I will. And not just that, i will be the best in it. (If there is such a thing). People will tell stories about it. One day, soon.
Sorry if this looks like an ego talk, but I am so tired of me being depressed over this. And no, I am not drunk.