I can completely relate to your feelings! Christmas is especially hard, because of all the expectations that are tied up with it. I got thru most of the social things pretty well, but the last one (with my in-laws!) didn't go so well. I was exhausted and anxious, and it was hard for me to make and keep eye contact, without me looking like I was going into some kind of trance! Now that anxiety is spilling over to conversations with my husband! Ugg. All I can say is don't run from the anxiety. Accept it and be patient with yourself. It would probably be good to share with your husband, so that he knows what you are feeling. And, if you can bow out of any further social obligations this week, even if only one or two, by all means do so. When our limits have been reached, it's best to acknowledge it and give ourselves the time and room to recover. One thing you'll learn about going through these sessions is that practice doesn't equal perfection. As we're doing these excersises, we want so much to have a sense of progress and accomplishment, and that's why setbacks are so hard. But just remember, failing IS part of the process. Happy New Year, and I hope the New Year brings new patience and grace - for you and all of us who struggle with this!