To cut a long story short, about a year ago SA got the better of me and after being ask to travel for work I sort of broke down infront of my manager and had no choice but to tell him. At that time i had seen my doctor, was starting anti depressants and was about to start a CBT course 1 to 1. Since that time we met again briefly and he asked me how i was getting on, to which I said it was much better & I am managing it well.
Like most people I dont want my manager thinking I wont be able to fufill my role or that im unstable etc so this wasnt the whole truth.
Now, about a year later he has set up another meeting with me 1 to 1. He has also done this with each member of my team so rationally I know this is just n obligation he has to meet. However, even though the meeting is a week away and im already anxious, tight chest, cant sleep. He is going to ask how things have progressed and I feel like im in the same place I was a year ago. He will again look at me like i cant cope. Then again i will feel back to the point where i have to prove I have it all together, that i can do my job.
Any advice on how i should handle this meeting. How to better explain SA to him. Or should I just tell him im fine so i dont have to get into the detail.