I am preparing to go out today. I have just done my cognitive slow talk and I am feeling relaxed and cheerful. It is a sunny autumn day. I live in central London and thought it would be nice to catch a bus to Oxford St in the west end and go for a walk and maybe do some shopping and get something to eat :). When I first came to London many years ago, this was a regular occurrence. Meeting new friends for some Sunday lunch and some drinks in a pub. Today I am going alone. I could have met a few people but I am also avoiding alcohol for the moment, if my anxiety comes calling it adds to the confusion and I would have probably had a drink and later, who knows? My ANT's tell me the worst will happen :(. (I know I should go and have a soft drink )
Anyway, a thought popped into my head. In recent years as the internet has grown, my reliance on it has increased. My online shopping and local take away deliveries. I now regularly buy household goods, products, food and takeaways online. So in a few short years my physical contact with shops, reduced to phone calls and now to anonymous emails. Even deliveries can be left in a safe place with no physical or verbal contact. I wondered if this may be a cause or a symptom of Social or other kinds of anxiety? Any thoughts welcome!
On a lighter note, after a recent survey, the majority of London public transport users (train, tube, bus) said one of the most annoying things they experience is strangers starting a conversation with them. I am going to put on my Biggest and Best smile today, Who cares?
The road has been bumpy at times on this journey, to say the least. But I am enjoying learning and growing with the therapy. And it is definitely sinking in and having a major positive impact. Thank you Dr Richards,
All the best,