My name is Christina. I am 41 years old. I live in a small town in Kentucky. I am originally from Pennsylvania and we moved for my husband's career. I have had SA since I was little, though it was always explained away as "She is just shy" by my mother. I finally realized it was not that I was just shy and I finally went to get help. I was diagnosed with SAD 10 years ago. I was in therapy until my insurance would no longer pay for my sessions. At that point my therapist said I was "cured" and no longer needed therapy.
I have pretty much been a shut-in for the last 15 years of my life due to my SA.
Being around my family (who I love) was a huge anxiety trigger for me. I come from a large blended family and there always some kind of drama happening between parents and my sibling and step-siblings.
Since I have moved to Kentucky and have been away from them, It has been better but being here left me with no kind of support system. A recent example of this is that in November of last year I ended up having seizures that led to a stroke. My husband is the only one I have here and he had to leave me in the hospital by myself so he could
come home and make sure our dogs were alright. I ended up having a huge panic attack and had to be sedated.
Finally my parents came to help but did not stay long. One of my step siblings was threatening to leave her job at my parents business so they had to go back home to convince her to stay.
I have found myself liking my new surroundings. The people here in Kentucky are so welcoming and kind.
I wish I could make some friends here that like the same stuff I do. Having a friend (or friends) that like all things nerdy like I do is something I desperately wish for. But for me it doesn't look like that will be possible right now.
I just started the therapy and I know I have a long road ahead of me. I try everyday to do something small that expands my world and today that small thing posting this on the forum.
Thank you for listening to my story.