Happy New Year Daulet,
I'm not an expert so can't really give you any advice, just my experience. Maybe it will help. I posted my full story, in my story.
When my anxiety became worse earlier this year. I went lower with my depression and anxiety then I have ever been before. Down a very deep hole that seemed very scary, dark and depressing. It seemed like I would never get out. What was the point of going on?? Like every waking minute I was being bombarded by negative and hopeless thoughts and feelings. No energy. Like living in a dream. As soon as I saw any daylight, it was gone again. I just kept on doing my therapy. Then all of a sudden it is months later. All those little steps have turned into giant strides. I feel happier, more relaxed and calm, outgoing and so much more optimistic. I want to meet new friends, get a partner. Those things used to terrify me. At the time it seemed hopeless but now it is hard to remember those days. I suppose we each have our own unique symptoms, some more or less severe than others. I always thought I was the exception to being cured, everyone but me would be... At the end of the day, I suppose you have to keep telling yourself, these thoughts are the LIARS and you will move forward if you keep doing the therapy and believe your rational truthful thoughts,
Wishing you all the best for the future,