Siw months ago I met a girl that worked with me before in another town. I really liked all people in that company and I was good friend with some of them. She called me to visit them sometimes for coffee and i said I will.
About 2 months later i met another girl from same company in my town and out r talk was about the same. She asked why I never visit them and I made some excuse and said I sure will soon.
Of course, I never did. Few times people from that company messaged me on Facebook about meeting them and I again made stupid excuse.
It became obvious that i don't want to meet them. Actually, i want to but I just can't. Somehow I am anxious just when I think about it. I want to stay friend with them but I just can't go there and just visit them.
Today, I met a taxi driver that we often called and he asked why I never come to that town and took my phone number. two hours later, he was in my old company and he called me and he gave the phone to my ex coworker.
He thought it was funny but it was really embarrassing to me. Again, I made most stupid excuse ever and finished that conversation.
All thins is a lot of fun for normal people and they probably don't think it is important. They just hang out in a company restaurant and call their friends to have coffee. But I feel so guilty.
And now, when I want to visit them, I feel even worse.
Very anxious after that phone call...
What do you think about this situation?
I don't want to do anything wrong but I can't do right thing...