I am in a middle of a difficult setback that lasts longer then expected. All this kinda messed up my perception of therapy.
I have some health problems again and they are caused mostly by stress. Since I moved to Ireland, 6 months ago, I am sick almost all of the time. Now I had some stomach problems and I runn to the bathroom every hour.
The thing I forgot to mention is, I moved apartment with 2 new housemates. I was trying to show how easy it is to live with me. Again great pressure. Everyone in Dublin knows how hard it is to get proper accommodation. And I ended up waking everyone up trough the night by going to toilet 15 times.
I was just waiting for them to talk to me how I need to go as they can’t live with me any more. Nobady said anything so far. These ANTs are killing me.
Besides that, I was writing before about my problems at work. Latelly, I started doing therapy again and things got better. I stsrted chatting with my team and it was easier to greet people when I arrive.
Untill last week when my team was deployed. And suddenly, I don’t really know anyone in the company.
My team will be back as they are just doing opposite shift and I was prepared for difficult 2 weeks but I believed it can’t be that bad. But this setback is tough. Again, I went in saying nothing to anyone. Few people that started chatting with me, I just finished very quickly. Later, they just ignored my tries to talk.
I wanted to ask you, do you think they will forget how I acted and talk normally with me in a few days…? Not same exact people but human rase in general? I thought I got over al that and now it hit me back.
It lasts over a week and I just need a bit of help understanding what is going on. I know it is stupid but I am kinda desperate.
From experience I know that things are not as bad as they look now. But, I don’t see any way out and everything I worked on seams useless. I tried reading Setbacks handout but I don’t feel any better. For now, I plan to surive the evening and go home to bed. Hopefully, tomorrow will be better.
Does anyone has exoerience with simmilar setbacks? How did it end?