Okay so i'm going to try to make this as brief as possible
I've been having a condition for about 3 years where my face would freeze up while talking or performing. So I had a performance yesterday and it was supposed to be lively and cheerful, so we were all supposed to smile. However, while we were performing, I couldn't keep my smile and my face tensed up and it looked as if I was cringing or frowning. It could be that I was performing in front of an audience older than me, so i get self conscious and my face turns into a frown (or cringe-like appearance). People would stare only at me (although there were about 8 of us performing) and after the performance, no one would talk or look at me.
There was another situation where a group of friends and I were hanging out. The conversation went well until the center of attention was on me. I felt as if everyone was staring at me and so I couldn't keep the conversation going. My face tensed up and I again got the "cringe-like" appearance, and so my friends talked among themselves and excluded me.
This has been ruining my social life and i've been trying to find a solution but haven't been able to. I've looked around and the only solution i've ran into was "Try not to think about what your face looks like" or "Be more engaged to whatever you're doing." I've looked around and seen people have similar symptoms as mine, but I feel that mine is one of the worst out there. Please help. I might consider drugs and alcohol if I cannot find a solution. This has been the only thing I've been trying to solve for the past years and I really need help!!