Glad to hear from you. I stopped the therapy for some few weeks and now continuing again. I had some hard time relaxing, taking easy with therapy. The therapy has affected my life and my mindset in a most unexpected ways. And it is still continuing to affect. I am visiting a counselor and talking with her about it so I won't get lost in all this. What I like about myself now is that I became less controversial in my thoughts and opinions. I am learning to relax my mind, to not abuse the thinking and analyzing part of my mind. Also, with counselor, I am learning to react better to/with my emotions. I use therapy strategies everyday and I feel more confident with them, like distracting myself and labeling ANTs. This week I am enjoying the "not fighting" strategy. Overall, I like myself better and I also think that I understand myself better, too. I think, there are all kinds of people who struggle with SA and GAD and they all have it in their own way. So you should pay attention to yourself, try to understand yourself, as you are being your own therapist with the online-series. It is your responsibility.
I understand you about the where I want to be. I think it is normal to have this goal. I think, I feel more relaxed when I know that I am going to move forward, that I will continue to take care of myself, of my needs. Glad to hear about you and your current well-being. Sorry for such a long response. If anyone reading this finds some part of it controversial or anything, please respond. I will try to clarify. I want to take responsibility for my every action, even the anxious ones. I won't abandon them.
Wish you all the best, thank you for responding. Rereading your messages above I see that you're very supportive. I want to try, too. I would like to write to you again in future, if it is okay, in a separate message with far more relaxed tone) Continue doing great, bye!
By the way I am from Kazakhstan. Would be glad to hear from anyone who is from KZ, too.