I have been doing the therapy series for 8 months now but I am having problems facing anxiety in a step by step manner.
One period i can be almost anxiety-free and i can talk to hard people with manageable anxiety,
but the other days social anxiety makes it hard to even talk to my parents.
On this days I get really self conscious when i talk and i am having a hard time thinking about something to say. The shyness becomes painfully high.
Its like i have a huge brainfog. Even writing a text here will lead to high anxiety.
I have made one friend during the last year, (acutally the only friend ive made since secondary school)
He is a very very VERY outgoing kind of person and he ALWAYS takes the initiative and i find it a bit strange that he wants to hang around someone who goes totaly mute when there is more people around or even when i am alone with him,
On good days i can talk and have fun with him without high anxiety, but those days are not that common unfortunately..
Now i am facing another dilemma, he have invited me to a lot of different stuff in the summer,
-one concert weekend with him and his other outgoing friends,
-workers union gathering with plenty of people and socializing.
-2 week trip to USA(i live in norway) with just us two.
I am feeling bad for saying no, he doesn't know i have an anxiety disorder.
I have said yes to the trip to USA because its only us 2.
Now i feel a bit of worry that anxiety will make that trip a living hell, i am trying not think about it much tho, cus i wont make it a self-fulfilling prophecy. IT can go well.
Anyone else dealing with situations like this, how do you manage it?,
once you start making friends on your good days and they invite you here and there, and they dont know about your problems...
You shouldn't flood yourself with anxiety the therapy series says, but on some days even talking to my dad or a friend feels like flooding for me, and it always lead to a setback. it makes it hard to step by step approaching anxiety.