This is my first post so thanks in advance for all your help.
Since I was roughly 12yrs. I have always had a problem with eye twitching and obsessing over it. Throughout my teen years and college, I would always fear everyone in the room was looking at me and staring at my eye twitch like some kind of freak. Has anyone ever dealt with this thinking?
Whenever I am in a social setting (business meeting, restaurant, gym , etc) all i think about is “Do they think my eyes twitch?”. I am constantly thinking about eyes blinking and staring at peoples eyes. I always notice when other peoples eyes start twitching as well. Just now I went to pick up dinner and the waitress started twitching as I ordered food. I instantly had a panic attack thinking that my eyes twitched, she noticed and hers unconsciously did it as well.
Its scary but the only time im not focusing on blinking is when i have a few drinks and my anxiety goes away. There is now alot of pain behind my eyes, and I recently scheduled a doctors visit. My eyes are frequently red and glossy , maybe due to my constant anxiety putting pressure on eyes.
The good thing is that it doesnt stop me from being social - i have had plenty of girlfriends and often considered the life of the party, but deep down im usually extremely depressed and have panic attacks. Any help is greatly appreciated.