I'm 17 years old and the last 5 years have been really rough. I found out I have anxiety about 2 years ago. Anxiety, depression, loneliness, sometimes I feel like I'm going nuts. My temper is getting out of control and I've already made bad choices that I will regret that will have a big impact on my life. I take care of my siblings while my mom works everyday. I'm at home 24/7, I can't remember the last time I actually stepped out of the house. All of my feelings and thoughts are trapped and in the situation I'm in no help is coming anytime soon. I had my first anxiety attack about a year and a half ago and it was the scariest feeling I've had in my life. I was sitting on my bed and all of a sudden I felt kind of dizzy and sick. I tried to get up and walk but it literally took all of my strength to get up and walk a room over to the bathroom. I'm in the bathroom leaning over the toilet like I have to puke but nothing comes out and I just feel really dizzy like I'm about to faint. I stand up to look in the mirror but I had to hold on to the sink to stabilize myself. Next thing you know I'm laying in the floor with my head against the tub with my mom over me trying to breathe into my mouth. I was awake but my body felt like I was on fire and all I could see was a bright light and I just started screaming and crying because I felt like I was burning alive. My mom brought me some water to drink and put on my face and she fed me hamburger helper and I was OK. This has happened about 3 times since but I was alone so I had to go through it and handle it alone. It's very scary thinking it's going to take over you again but the funny thing is it comes unexpected. The other week I was fine and grilling hot dogs for the kids and it happened out of nowhere. I don't know if I can get rid of it but it feels good to talk about it.