I feel like I am going crazy. I’ve tried talking to my psychologist, a psychiatrist, my friends, and my family and I feel like everybody is in on this big joke except me. It started with a bad LSD trip, and it just keeps getting worse. I feel like I’m on a much more sinister version of The Truman Show. i’m afraid that my own family hates me and are actually paid actors, i’m afraid that everybody is watching me and knows everything about me and hates me. i’m afraid that in order to “end” this i’m supposed to kill myself, and not only that but I feel like people WANT me to kill myself.
i’m truly losing my mind, i can’t even go out in public because i feel like people are looking at me funny- like they know who i am, and they think i’m a joke.
i think everything i’ve ever judged people for is something i am or something i do.
i feel like mirrors are lying to me and i’m actually overweight and horrendously ugly and i just cant see it. i feel like everybody is lying to me. i cant trust anybody. i feel sick all the time. i just want this end.
i dont know what to do anymore