I know we're early in therapy, but I feel like I'm struggling to apply the lessons to my life in any way. I have been able to use slow talk occasionally, but talking has never given me as much anxiety as my non-verbal communication in general.
With lesson 3, I'm really struggling to grasp and apply the lessons at all. Catching ANTs has been basically impossible to me and I'm not sure if I should move on to the next lesson without having made any progress on this one. My mind is so fluttered with anxiety that I feel helpless to apply anything or think straight as I go throughout the day. I can't slow my thinking down or fight off the ANTs.
Do you guys feel that this therapy can be effective if your life is full of anxiety-inducing situations almost nonstop?
My situation is that I work in midtown-NYC in a communication-based field that involves constant meetings with salespeople, meetings with our "team" and phone meetings on speaker with upwards of 20-30 people at a time. I'm a recent college graduate. My anxiety opens me to scrutiny as it effects my performance, and a lot of my performance is based on communication which adds a lot of anxiety for me because it puts pressure on my communication.
I commute over an hour to work and obviously the commute is also full of people and crowded being that it's NY.
For the past few weeks I've come home every night and done the 30 minutes of studying, on weekend days I've done it for more than 30 minutes. I understand that many of you also face a ton of anxiety in your life as well.
Does anyone else struggle to apply the lessons in real life? I know the concept this early is to work your way up to those more anxiety-inducing moments and start small, but basically most of my time right now is spent in those moments. The constant anxiety has really sped up my thinking (we're supposed to slow down) and made it hard to focus on the lessons at home as well.
I started the job about three weeks ago. It's an outstanding opportunity at a great company with good pay, good benefits and generally nice co-workers. I worry that I may never get a great opportunity like this again, as the job market is extremely competitive and I don't have a resume/education level that leads to this level of opportunity often. But it's just making the therapy nearly impossible for me to apply and giving me as much anxiety as I've had in a while. Right now I'm considering trying to survive for about 3 months if I can to pad my resume and then quit and pursue help, but I don't know if I'm being irrational.
Does anyone else feel a similar way about their life?