Hello everyone. This is my first post and sorry if it's long and messy. So I'm struggling with my gender identity. I was born a girl but I feel more like a boy. But, I don't know if it's 100% boy? If that makes any sense. I don't identify as a girl at all. Like... if someone asks me if I wear a boy or a girl I freeze up. Girly roles, clothes, ect make me uncomfortable give me anxiety. My mum got married and i got a panic attack because she wanted me to wear a dress and I wanted to wear a tux. It made me feel temporarily depressed... I stay away from relationships because of intimacy and fear of them seeing my downstairs area, same goes with getting pap smears or all that other stuff. And in school I always felt like I didn't belong with the girls... I always played rough, acted more like a boy. Had more boy friends who I played figures and Pokemon with, than girl friends. Even my mum had to force me to look like a girl, because I had no interest and I just got anxious over it all. I started binding in the last year or so and while it's uncomfortable and I can actually go without it because my chest is small. I still enjoy doing it because I feel more "right" and comfortable, and confident. When I was a kid I always want boy toys, video games, boy themed birth parties, and Halloween costumes too. I've always struggled with low self esteem and depression. I go through these dysphoric episodes of wanting to drown myself/cut off my breasts because I'm so frustrated from them (these thoughts are rare though). I overthink a lot and get suicidal and irritable and miserable, wish I didn't do that. I don't like my birthname but if someone calls it out or asks me I get anxious and can't introduce myself because that name doesn't fit right with me. Does this sound like Gender Dysphoria or being transgender?