I always suffered from bullying my whole life.
Lately, I learned how I can get respect only by my pose. People seam to respect me, probably cause I am always very serious and I look lie I am demanding respect. That, of course, is just blaffing.
Problem is when someone calls on my blaff. I am not able to fight back and stand up for my self. At least not by instinct like other people do. I sometimes react later after I gave it a good thought. Offten, I feel like it isto late.
Example: Recently I made a small mistake at work and one lady, a boos in another department has called me on the phone. She is authority in the company but I always considered her friendly.
She started screaming at me, told me to never do that again and hung up the phone before I coukd say anything. My mistake was barely noticable and it looked to me like she was looking for a reason for an attack. It was all stupid.
It is not possible that this mistake will do any more damage or get any attention. I don’t care at all what these people think. I don’t even care if thet fire me. I can always get a new job.
What worries me is the fact that I showed weeknes and that it could get worse. I am not sure how to react to this. I wanted to call her back and start yalling back in my defense but that felt so stupid.
Yet, I can’t allow to be bullied for no reason in the future.
What do you think?